Amy Chudley
Artist
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Wednesday 30 April 2014
Monday 28 April 2014
Music and painting titles.
Lately, I’ve been really enjoying naming work after song
titles or lyrics…its not necessarily going to become a permanent habit, but for
now I really love the way connecting a painting to a song can enrich the whole
experience for me.
It's been the way with a few paintings that I’ll be working
on it, knowing roughly what I want to say in the particular concept but not
really being able to verbalise much….when I’ve ether listened to a song or a
song has popped into my head and a light bulb has gone on….like “ah that’s what
I was trying to say….you took the words right out of my mouth”, from there on
in that song has become a sort of theme tune to the painting.
With ‘More than this’
The title comes from a Peter Gabriel song
This is a favourite of mine…although the song itself
doesn’t really speak about the subject matter of my painting, I felt the title
summed it up nicely.
‘Precious Things’
You’ve just gotta love a bit of Tori!
Admittedly, I’m not always sure I know quite what she’s getting
at but I do love her delivery!
Maybe I’ve got the complete wrong end of the stick but to me
'Precious Things' talks a lot about how hard it can be being a girl, growing up and
stepping into womanhood in the world we live in….
In my painting, I was very much thinking about this and about
how we parent our daughters.
‘Gold Dust’
Another Tori!
This song is just so beautiful.
Memories of our own childhood mixed with that of our children,
trying desperately to hold onto them.
The line that sums it up so beautifully for me is.
“How did it go so fast? We’ll say as we are looking back and
then we’ll understand we held Gold Dust in our hands."
Wednesday 22 January 2014
Pure Imagination
Following on from my last blog, here is the second painting
of my lovely friend Chiara.
Finishing this painting has been hard, I think in some ways
I didn’t want the experience to end.
I’m not going to say much…I don’t feel like I can.
I’d just like to say a little about the title.
It was inspired by something Chiara’s boyfriend, Charlie,
said about her and the impact she had on his world.
Its comes from the song ‘Pure Imagination’ from the film
Willy Wonker and the Chocolate factory.
While painting this, his words and this song have often been
stuck in my head.
As often the way, the painting took on a life of its own and
Chiara became very much a Gene Wilder/Willy Wonker kind of character.
To me it feels as though she is intensely staring out from
the painting, inviting you to share in her magical world with her.
I feel so blessed that I took her up on that offer as many
of us did.
Sunday 24 November 2013
'Half don’t come here…….so I do.’
A feisty ball of energy, so stylist, so beautiful,
wonderfully creative, completely loyal, totally encouraging and supportive.
A natural comedian, someone who could have you in stitches
without even trying.
Yet someone you could be completely real with, stay up all
night just talking.
Someone intelligent, strong minded yet compassionate beyond
belief.
A friend who invites you in to share with them their
wonderfully unique world.
A friend you find yourself talking proudly about so often,
almost boasting about them to others, boasting of how blessed you are to have
such a wonderful person in your life…..
This is Chiara.
I had wanted to paint Chiara for a long, long time (for
obvious reasons)
We had talked about it many times before and being so
supportive and encouraging she was very happy to star in one or two of my
paintings.
So in May when she came down for one of her flying visits I
was so pleased and excited to finally have her sit for me.
I do have to say though, even though we had discussed this
often, I did spring it on her this particular day in May.
So after a bit of “I’d have worn more make up if I had known
it was going to be today!” And some “Oh come on, you look amazing and I
actually prefer not to paint too much make up”, we got to talking about how
we’d go about it.
I’d been thinking a lot about the direction I wanted to take
my work in over the next few years and how I might want to approach certain
subjects.
Chiara was always a great person to talk to about these things;
she had studied at art school and worked at the Tate for many years.
We decided that she were to be portrayed (quite rightly so)
as a strong, confident, dynamic woman!
We had great fun with the photo shoot, if a little funny and
awkward at times and off she want back to London .
Going through the ideas I chose three photos to work from
for two paintings.
Very excitedly, I told her of my choices and explained my
ideas but rather frustratingly I knew due to finishing off other work and my
children being off school for the summer holidays I wouldn’t be able to start
painting them until the beginning of September.
I saw Chiara twice more, once in London
in July and once when she came down in August.
On September the 4th Chiara was in a road traffic
accident and was taken from us.
No words can even begin to describe how heartbreakingly
devastating this is.
Chiara had such a huge impact on so many people; she’s not
someone who could be easily forgotten.
It would be more than fair to say that she was favoured by
many and favourite to many.
She meant so much to me; we’d been friends since doing our
A-levels together.
She helped me on my journey to becoming me; she is and will
always be a big part of who I am.
She never once let me down, she was always there, always
loyal.
To quote a mutual friend, “she was like a beacon of light”.
I really hope she knew just how much I treasured having her
in my life.
I decided it would be the right thing to do to carry on with
the paintings exactly as planned.
It did cross my mind that I should
maybe go back through the photos and try to find a smiley one or something, but
that didn’t feel right.
It seemed authentic and true that
I should carry on as planned.
It felt like unfinished business,
like things weren’t quite over yet.
With the suddenness of her going
and not being able to at the very least even say goodbye, continuing on with
these paintings has been a way of feeling like things hadn’t quite finished.
This is the first (I'm still
working on the other)…..
It goes without saying that
painting this has been an extremely emotional time, like a heartbreaking
privilege of sorts.
I know she was so excited
to see them finished, she texted me in June asking how it was going, telling me to hurry up and get
started as she needed a new facebook profile picture.
There would have been times when
it was going well, that I would have sent her a work in progress shot.
And having finished this one now,
not being able to show her is so hard.
When we talked about the concept
of this particular painting we talked about names,
I remember Chiara joking about
something along the lines of “Twice the Chi fun”.
The name for the painting came to
me whilst listening to a song by her all time favourite band Reef:
Please take the time to listen…..
This song has been a real comfort
to me since loosing my lovely friend.
I don’t want to sound trite but
sometimes it even feels as though she’s trying to comfort me through it.
So I have named this painting
after one of the lines in this song…
‘Half don’t come here…….so I do.’
Yes, there’s a bit of a pun in
there. I’m not ashamed, I like a good pun.
But really, Chiara did not do
things by half, she lived life to the full, she didn’t come in half measure and
we all loved her for it.
I miss my wonderful friend more
than words can say.
I love you Chiara... so, so much.x
Saturday 16 November 2013
Introduction to blogging
So……here goes.
I wanted to write a little bit of an introduction to this
blog, to talk a bit about me, my work and what I might want to use it for.
I have been thinking about starting an art blog for sometime
now, but I feel a number of things ‘fear’ being one have held me back.
Also, the thought “will anyone even want to read it?”
If you know me you’ll know how important my art is to me,
how much passion, hard work, thoughtfulness and integrity goes into in, with a
quiet belief in the work and myself that says “I may be far from there yet, but
I believe I’m on the right track”.
You will also know that I am some what of a worrier. I worry
that not being particularly academic I will not have the skills I need to put
down in words all that a certain painting means to me and that this blog will
then only serve to cheapen my work.
You will probably also know that I have a slight complex
about that fact that I didn’t go to university. At the time in my life when I
could have gone I didn’t. I then wanted very much to work on song writing and
musical things with my then boyfriend now husband. I had my first child when I
was twenty-three and my second when I was twenty-six. I don’t regret a thing! I
just don’t feel that at this time in my life I can go of to art school. I need
to be here, being a mother and a wife.
With that, I worry about my technique and all that is not
technically correct about it.
The last six years or so have felt like my learning
alternative to going to art school…
I am learning, just a lot slower than I maybe would have had
I have gone to uni.
That said, I would not rule it out and will go to private
lessons and classes if and when I can.
Facebook has opened up a big world of art that I might not
have otherwise known was out there, I learn something new everyday... and for
that reason I love it.
On the other hand, it does sometimes serve to make me feel
less than, for that reason I struggle with it.
I wear my heart on my sleeve; I am truthful…sometimes too truthful.
If you ask me how things are I’m likely to tell you and in great detail! I’m
then sure to come away feeling slightly awkward about the whole thing.
I do so much worry what others think, I know I shouldn't…this is a
battle I very much want to overcome.
My aim with this blog is to have a safe place (safer than
facebook) to put down a few words, thoughts and feelings about my work, maybe
from time to time the odd work in progress shot too.
I hope that you’ll come back and visit.
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